For anyone who's ever been distracted by their ego)
It's been one month since I started this blog. I'm finding my days, these notes, and my life move along more seamlessly, when I rise early, exercise, open my heart, avoid thinking too hard, keep things simple, and stay off the internet for the first few hours of the day. The process of writing these posts has been invaluable to me. Yesterday was the first day, I took "off." I needed to. Having a day to refresh makes good sense, but there's more. My recent notes weren't easily falling out of my head, which left me wondering, "How did something so energizing start to feel like a chore?" We can lose motivation when we "have to" do something instead of choosing to, but no one's making me do this. I think there's a more powerful way that a passion and purpose filled act can lead to fatigue and that's when it stops serving the soul and serving others and starts serving the ego - when it becomes fueled by a desire for Facebook likes or the Nobel Prize ...in blogging. If I weren't writing these publicly or didn't have certainty that anyone was reading, would I do this? Would I take the time to explore a thought and see where it takes me, to set a tone for my day and to let the words fall out onto the page for me to read...on things I need help with? Yes,... I would, though doing this publicly has helped me keep my commitment to myself. This won't be the last time I'll have to tell my distracting ego - "I'm sorry, but you weren't invited and I'm going to have to ask you to leave." And, it won't be the last time I'll have to take up a chat with my soul and ask, "Now, why are we doing this?" But, as long as I'm having fun and believe there's benefit, for me and possibly others, then I'll keep this party going. Courtney A Brown To send this note to a friend:
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(For anyone needing permission to follow their bliss or anyone wanting to encourage a child to follow theirs).
Today I've been thinking about times I've thrown myself into an activity without 'good reason.' I painted wooden balls, (a few I've photographed above). I made collages out of cut paper like in the image on the right. I wrote poems and songs. Most recently, I started writing this blog. My 'day job' is not as an artist, songwriter or blogger, and yet I've deeply immersed myself in each of these. They've taught me how to listen to myself and have engaged me more deeply with others, my work and the world. A few years ago, I wrote my daughter a poem about this, called, "Follow the Energy." Before life goes on I want you to know To follow the energy Wherever it goes Everyone is different That's part of the trick Follow theirs and You will be sick You may have a thought An urge or a drive You must pay attention It'll keep you alive It might be a song That's stuck in your head Play it again Hear what it said It might be a feeling When you pick up a book Turn every page There's reason to look You may have to go To the ends of the earth You won't have a choice If it's calling you forth You have an old dream You have to explore You get just one life To open your door At times you'll be wrong You'll hurt, you might cry Live out your moments Don't let them pass by And know as you search For that which is true I'll live in your heart I'm always with you Your passion is there It wants to be found Don't ever settle Your feet on the ground Courtney A Brown |
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