For anyone who's ever been distracted by their ego)
It's been one month since I started this blog. I'm finding my days, these notes, and my life move along more seamlessly, when I rise early, exercise, open my heart, avoid thinking too hard, keep things simple, and stay off the internet for the first few hours of the day. The process of writing these posts has been invaluable to me. Yesterday was the first day, I took "off." I needed to. Having a day to refresh makes good sense, but there's more. My recent notes weren't easily falling out of my head, which left me wondering, "How did something so energizing start to feel like a chore?" We can lose motivation when we "have to" do something instead of choosing to, but no one's making me do this. I think there's a more powerful way that a passion and purpose filled act can lead to fatigue and that's when it stops serving the soul and serving others and starts serving the ego - when it becomes fueled by a desire for Facebook likes or the Nobel Prize ...in blogging. If I weren't writing these publicly or didn't have certainty that anyone was reading, would I do this? Would I take the time to explore a thought and see where it takes me, to set a tone for my day and to let the words fall out onto the page for me to read...on things I need help with? Yes,... I would, though doing this publicly has helped me keep my commitment to myself. This won't be the last time I'll have to tell my distracting ego - "I'm sorry, but you weren't invited and I'm going to have to ask you to leave." And, it won't be the last time I'll have to take up a chat with my soul and ask, "Now, why are we doing this?" But, as long as I'm having fun and believe there's benefit, for me and possibly others, then I'll keep this party going. Courtney A Brown To send this note to a friend:
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(For anyone feeling uninspired or unsure where their mojo went.)
One week ago, I wrote, "So, to the universe, I say, 'Bring it on.'" The "it," was referring to obstacles that could get in the way of writing these daily posts. I was trying to convince myself, that I could keep this going while visiting my parents for the week of Thanksgiving. In case it's not already obvious, challenging the universe is never a good idea. Still, I was able to write without much difficulty, until today, after returning home. Now, jet lagged and with a cold, I'm uninspired and lacking in ideas. Though not the biggest obstacles I can imagine, they're enough to raise self doubt and questions like, "Why the hell am I doing this?" or even more pressing, "What the hell should I write about?" I type on, hoping something will open up, when the title of a book pops in my head - "Never Not a Lovely Moon," by Carolyn McHugh. It comes from a conversation the author has with her son. She's making the point that even when the moon can't be seen, it's still there; it's still lovely. If the soul, the creative spark, a faithful outlook is like the moon, then today would be one of those days when it's covered with clouds or simply not visible, but it's still there. The title coming to me out of blue, is as if that something mysterious - however we call it - is saying... "I'm still here, I'm still lovely, I'm just resting at the moment and so should you." Courtney A Brown To send this note to a friend: |
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